Wednesday, February 11
Last blogged @ 7:46 PM

Viewing my brother, Aidil's blog, making
me feel so jealous. I mean, he can easily moved on
and never felt sad and bad whenever something
bad happened in his relationship.
I mean, he do love the girl, I think, but he can
moved on whenever he wants to.

Me, after 4 months, I still can't move on.
I can't have those brand new feelings like my
brother could have anytime.

I'm trying my best here and yes, everything
about him has changed. I don't love him anymore
but I can't easily forget him, he's been with me
for, nearly two years and I can't love anybody after
him. Its complicated. I can't be myself with other
guys. I forget how to do all those things after not
contacting with other guys except for him, insertname
for two years. I forget everything.

Whats up with me?
I hate this. So much.

Thats not what I want to say here, actually.
I just wish I could have those brand new feelings.
Thats all.